I dragged this post out just for the fun of it. I was reading a post from a friend's blog about the daily mess and realistic day to day struggles and thought of this journal entry. Sometimes, I think the rose colored glasses come in the realization that we aren't perfect and that the world is beautiful because of our imperfections...
Tonight, I sat at the computer after a decent day and started my taxes. I thought of turning on netflix while I worked, but for some reason didn't. I finished as much as I could without the necessary paperwork and then went on to start the paperword to modify our house loan. I randomly went to look something up on the internet and pulled up my home page which is lds.org. I randomly clicked on the link to the I am a mormon videos and have literally spent the last hour watching all these amazing stories and lives...It makes me realize how grateful I am for the life I live and the blessing I have. I am grateful for a partially empty fridge and the because I realize that I had enough to get me through the week. I am grateful for the reminder to stop a moment and see the children I have and be grateful for the opportunity to share every day with them. I have been a distracted and cranky mom lately...

The Elders popped by this week to introduce themselves officially into the branch. I was mortified. The house was a DISASTER! The kids were running around screaming and sword fighting. The laundry was spread all over the school room, the cushions were once again off the couch and every single toy was unceremoniously scattered across the floor. It was CHAOS and here I was supposedly schooling my kids. To be fair, I had two extras and I was schooling the older two while the younger two occupied the extras. Anyway, the one sweet elder, looked around and asked" Is it always like this? In my moment of embarrassment, I thought to myself, yep, yep it is... my life is always chaos, and yes this is me keepin it real. The elders left and I laughed to myself and took these photos to share on facebook as a "ha ha great moment" type thing


Funny the comments from friends were anything but judgmental. Most comments reflected the joy of motherhood. There was lots of encouragement for the creativity and love reflected in letting kids be kids and allowing our chaos to build creativity... I was looking back at these photos and just noticed Liam giving me the I love you sign while he is sword fighting his brother. You know, life is full of all kinds of moments, it's what we do with those moments that counts. It's taking the time to be grateful for the chaos. I can't say I was the best mom this day. I let the embarrassment get to me. I got cranky, I made everyone clean, I made my kids feel my disappointment in the fact that they didn't get enough school done. I forgot to treasure a moment and be grateful that my kids are creative, fun, wonderful kids. Hind sight is 20/20 and today I see my mistakes and I want this next year, month, week, day to be one where I can see what is right in front of me.
A day where I value the blessings the Lord has given me! And let that grattitude and value be known
God is good. He loves me, he gave me the most amazing, forgiving, love me in my weakness family to teach me how to achieve my divine potential.
Now it's my job/privilege to let those I am most grateful for know it. Know their value in my eyes and feel my love for them.